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Accepting my past

As the year ends I have been reflecting upon the past year and what I have done and what I have been through.  I have decided that I must accept my past, accept my mistakes and look forward to the future.  I chose to attempt suicide in order to escape the pain that I was feeling, the pain of not being able to accept my short comings, and not being able to accept my bipolar condition and what it caused me to do and not do.  My poor husband put up with so much, it's no wonder he didn't leave me.  I truly have a gem of a husband.  He is so truly amazing it is hard to believe that he is mine forever.  He has put up with so much, yet has stuck by my side and continues to do so.  I wouldn't be any where near where I am in my recovery if it wasn't for him.  He has made sure I have all the tools necessary to heal, to move on and to take care of myself.  I love him to pieces and am forever grateful.

Also as we look to the new year, I want to get better and better.  I want to continue to use the coping skills I have learned as well as learn new ways of handling my disease.  Just as if I was a diabetic I would continually look for ways to heal, ways to become better at handling my disease.   A lot of people with Bipolar let it 'lead' their lives and let it knock them down and keep them there.  I am trying to hard to rise above my disease, and so hard to keep moving and keep healing and keep getting better.  I don't want my disease to limit my progress, or to limit me in any way.  I don't know if what I am saying makes sense, but I'm trying.

I guess what I am trying to say is that yes I am a Rapid Cycling Mixed Bipolar person, but I am trying to rise above that, I have a disease, that I will not let limit what I can do.  I will not let it keep me down, I will not let it tell me what I can and can't do.  I will not let it continue to keep me from doing the things that I want to do with my life.  I will rise above it, I will be the best that I can be.  I hope that makes sense.
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