Shades of Sunshine

So have been feeling rather depressed today, not sure why, but I just have.  Had weird thoughts (like was at the gas station and everyone was buying cigarettes and I thought that sounds good) What the HECK?  I only smoked for about 3 months back in 1996 (and yes I have the asthma lung damage to prove it) why on earth was I having that weird thought?  I can't even stand the smell of cigarette smoke, it makes me want to puke, so I have NO idea where that twisted thought came from.  I guess that is the prerogative of my messed up bipolar mind.  Sometimes being bipolar really sucks lemons!  But as the thought says, when life hands you lemons, make lemonades. I  was feeling down, my parents came to see me (bring a dog back to the shop and bring me some Halloween bandannas) and my older sister Lara invited me to lunch tomorrow.  My older sister Jennifer (also my "sponsor") calls me EVERY day.  I can't tell her how much that means to me, I look ...