Shades of Sunshine

  Today I have a bone spur removed on my left pinky toe....again (had the exact same surgery last november), and surgery, pre-op etc went so smoothly I'm still having a hard time believing it.  I was minimally anxious for it today, last time I was completely wigging, crying and the likes.  Went in the operating room fine, and when I came back out, I was calm/collected, no panic/anxiety/ hyperventilating attacks.  I know that I was so much better this time because of the meds I am on, they have totally helped me have a 'balanced' life.  I love it!  I did not get sick/nauseas from the anesthesia.  I'm trying to convince Rob to buy me a "Bear Hug" system for christmas.....the bed warmer they hook up to your hospital gown. Oh and my dream was just that a dream about all the changes I have been making....as someone reared her ugly head.  I am not being emotional about it at all, yes there is that little bit of grief I am feeling but I'm not foc...