How Far I have come

I sure have come a long way in the past year.  I am very grateful to my hubby who is my support.  He keeps me on the right path and gives me something to live for.  I love him with every beat of my heart. 

So I had a visit with my psychiatrist.  We are weaning me off Geodon (waaaaaaaaaaa).  And increasing my seroquel.  Not sure how I feel about that as I love what Geodon has done for my appetite.  Not sure I want the Seroquel weight gain, I have done so well (lost 45#) since I started the Geodon.  We will see how I do on just the seroquel, if I start gaining massive weight I will make her take me off of it. 

I am proud to say that my kitchen is still clean (over a month), there have been 1 or 2 days where I haven't done the dishes every day but for the most part my counters have been clean, stove has been cleaned off.  Now I just need to transfer some of that cleaning to my fridge.  Hubby and I attacked the pantry this past weekend.  It was such a mess, now it is clean and organized.  We kept buying tomato paste because we thought we were out of it.....big surprise we have a ton of it now, as we just couldn't see it in the pantry.  Now everything has a place and I love it.  I kept opening it up over the weekend just to stare at it and to see how awesome it looked.  Yah, I know I'm a weirdo.

On the job front things are very bleak at the moment.  I hate my job, literally. I can't get hired anywhere I apply, trying not to feel like a failure, but it's hard at the moment especially since I have so much experience as a Veterinary Receptionist.  I really wish my dad's clinic was still opened.  It was my heart and soul for so long.  He still works just out of his home.