Shades of Sunshine

So my hubby jokingly said yesterday that I was going to visit the Looney Bin.  Hey I'm the one who told him before we got married I was certifiably crazy :-)  I am getting ready to head there now, and I am terrified.  I am scared, I have never done any type of 'group' therapy or anything and it scares the crap out of me.  I don't know what to expect, what meds are they going to put me on?  Am I gonna be a drowsy nut, like my sister was?  They had her on so many drugs at one point that she passed out while driving, totaled her car and took out a telephone pole........these are my fears.  I am extremely nauseated today.  It could be that my Neurotransmitter levels are so low I am reacting to the Neuroreplete....leaving a note for Rob to call the Dr as I'm not sure when I will be home today. I will say someone has turned my Robby receptors back on....holy cow!  Feeling like I haven't felt in a LONG LONG time :-)  And loving every minute of...

To get a better idea of what is going on please read:  http://waiting4sunshine.blogspot.com/p/my-story.html  This is a very sensitive topic, I don't need pity, I just wanted to record my journey in case anyone else needs help or is going through something similar. So I am on my way to recovery now.  I am going into a partial hospitalization program tomorrow to get the help I need.  This is scary for me yet I know it needs to happen.  I am however feeling pretty good today.  Saw my primary Dr and he gave mineral liquid to take which got rid of my headache.  Also got mel the L-methionine which helps dopamine levels.  Rob says its probably in my head but no roller coaster of emotions today, only cried while talking to intake lady a the mental health place....where I discovered that not having kids aparently is affecting me more than I realize.....yet another thing I have failed at.  So my Dr started me on Neuroreplete, theanine and Lithium oro...