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I am a semi-functional bipolar, meaning that outside the home I function very well, inside the home is a different story.  Dishes pile up, counters need cleaned, I haven't seen my kitchen table in who knows how long as it's piled up with crap, my floor needs vacuumed and swept, you know it's not 'clean' by any means.  I have been thinking on it a lot lately and have decided that I want that to change.  I want to come home from work to a clean house, one that doesn't cause me anxiety and stress because it's messy.  I am going to start using a method of cleaning that I used years ago that helped, it is called "The Fly Lady Method"  you can read more about it here. http://www.flylady.net/  It is basically a simple method with different zones in the household to keep things neat and tidy.  There are things like crisis cleaning and such to get the ball rolling.  I really am tired of living the way that I do, tired of the mess, tired of the clutter and just want to be over it.  So that is my new goal is to work on getting my house into shape.  I am also going to try to be better about doing the items on my 'to do' list that I generally just cross off as finished the next day on my tablet instead of even looking at it.  That needs to change too. I have certain tasks that I want to complete each day when I get home from work, they don't take that long and it's something that I can do each day and cross them off as I complete them.

I am definitely going to see if my Psych will put me on something for my daily anxiety.  Today I just had anxiety to have anxiety......nothing was causing it, I just felt anxious most of the day.  Now on the way home there was a reason for it, it was snowing and due to a traumatic event 10+ years ago while driving in the rain, I white knuckle it in rain or snow.  I almost couldn't make it up the hill to pick up my dog from my dads tonight, I was sliding everywhere and my car was just spinning the wheels.  I finally did make it up the hill though. 

As far as my weight goes, right now I am happy to just be maintaining.  I have been on my weightloss journey for a year now and I am down about 70# and 60", to me that's pretty incredible.  I am almost to a healthy BMI for my height and 25# away from my ultimate goal weight.  I will get back on the losing track and start losing weight again.  I am trying to get my migraine headaches under control so I can exercise every day. 

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