Worrying

I normally don't post more than once a day, but I feel compelled to post a 2nd time today, probably because I haven't been posting regularly again.  I am sick with a cold and am feeling pretty miserable, however it's my own fault as my hubby kept telling me not to kiss him, I can't help it if he is oh so kissable.  LOL.

<--------- I tend to be a worry wort, it runs in my mother's family, I remember my Grandma was always worrying about the little things, if we fell and scraped our knees she would be so worried.  I like this quote as worrying does not change the future it just empties today of it's strength.  I try not to worry but it is part of my anxiety.  Gotta love good ole anxiety.  It seems the older I get the more anxious I become.  I utilize the techniques my counselor has given me, and I am able to minimize my anxiety most of the time, however it is still there.  It is so frustrating, I never remember being an anxious person like this.  Guess with age comes anxiety?  At least in my case.  I think part of mine is chemically induced (caffeine/aspartame) by my Diet Coke addiction, I was doing really well with just one mug a day, but I have since resorted back to my evil drinking days lol, and am back up to 2 (2 Liters) per day, then I wonder why I have anxiety so bad.  GRRRRR  Never ending vicious cycle.  I tend to drink more whether it be water or diet coke when I am anxious, so some days I drink WAY too much liquids as I get anxious and drink lots and lots, wonder why I do that.  I guess in a way drinking liquids when anxious helps give me something to do, and quells my anxiety slightly.  But on the other hand it makes me more anxious especially if I am drinking diet soda.  I have just got to buck up and quit drinking Diet Soda altogether.  I have said I was going to quit so many times, but never stick with it.  I just have to do it, it's not healthy the amount I consume in a day.  This will be a hard thing for me, but I am going to do it.    Wish me luck.