Stones in your path

I thought today that I would share a little bit more about how bipolar affects my life. I have mixed rapid cycling bipolar. Basically what that means is that my moods can change in a matter of minutes. I can be manic (happy, up beat, extreme amounts of energy) and change to depression in a matter of minutes. I don't have psychotic features as some people who have bipolar do get. I don't hear voices other than my conscious/intuition telling me whether or not to do something. When I am manic my mind races 100 miles per second, I can't stay focused and have tons of energy. I make horrible decisions and spend lots of money (if I have it). Luckily my hubby controls our finances now so I can't go out and spend money like crazy like I was.

I am pulling myself out of a depression at the moment which was caused by us trying to cut back on the amount of pills I take in a day. Well that didn't work out too well so back to the regular dosage of Seroquel. We are now going to try and wean me off of the geodon, well next week I will start to wean myself off of it. I don't know how I feel about it, as I have lost lots of weight being on geodon. That just means I will have to work that much harder to keep the weight from creeping back up on me. Bipolar can make me be super irritable as my hubby can attest, especially when I'm off my meds (which thank heavens I haven't been off of for a year except when I couldn't hold anything down for 3 days back in june). I think part of that episode was due to anxiety. I've noticed I get nauseas when I am anxious. You can learn more about rapid cycling here:
http://www.dbsalliance.org/site/PageServer?pagename=education_brochures_bipolar_disorder_rapid_cycling

I also have General Anxiety Disorder. I get anxious about things that I can do nothing about a lot, things like what dogs I have to groom each day, and how long it will take me. Lately it's been about driving since my accident. I get somewhat anxious about going to the grocery store but usually it's manageable. I have meds to help with the anxiety but they are a tranquilizer so they make me dopey which I don't like so usually only take them when I can't control it by natural means. By natural means I mean breathing exercises, anxiety tapping, meditation and things along those lines.

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