When people hear “OCD,” most think of being overly neat or liking things a certain way. But for those of us who live with it every day, we know it’s so much deeper—and sometimes so much heavier—than that.
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder isn’t just a personality quirk. It’s a mental health condition that affects how we think, how we feel, and how we move through the world. And today, I want to open up a little more about what it really looks like for me—behind the smiles, behind the organization, behind the curated posts.
🌪 The Thought Spirals
OCD for me often shows up in the form of intrusive thoughts—those “what if” worries that loop over and over.
• What if I didn’t lock the door and someone breaks in?
• What if something bad happens and it’s my fault?
• What if I forget something important and everything falls apart?
These aren’t just passing thoughts. They’re loud, repetitive, and feel like they demand action—compulsions—to make the anxiety go away.
🔁 The Rituals
OCD isn’t just about thoughts—it’s about the things I feel I have to do in response to those thoughts.
Sometimes that means:
• Checking (and rechecking) things
• Repeating certain phrases in my head
• Avoiding things altogether because the anxiety is too much
It’s exhausting. It’s frustrating. And it often happens invisibly, behind the scenes.
😔 The Shame + Silence
One of the hardest parts of living with OCD is the shame. People don’t always understand. The fear of being “too much” or “too intense” can keep you quiet.
But here’s what I’ve learned: Mental illness is not a character flaw. And talking about it? That’s part of the healing.
💛 My Support Tools
Healing isn’t linear, but I’ve found ways to manage and support myself on this journey:
• Daily CBD – This has helped quiet the noise in my brain and bring me back to center
• Exercise – Movement helps regulate my nervous system and release pent-up energy
• Therapy + medication support – I work with a professional I trust, and I take what helps
• Setting boundaries – Saying “no” when I need to protect my peace
• Compassion – Because healing doesn’t happen through shame. It happens through gentleness
💬 Why I’m Sharing This
Because someone reading this might feel seen for the first time.
Because maybe you’ve been quietly battling OCD too—and wondering if you’re the only one.
You’re not. I promise.
Living with OCD isn’t easy, but it’s also not the end of the story.
There’s support. There’s hope. There’s life beyond the loops.
And if you’re navigating this journey too, you’ve got a safe place here.
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Sending you love and light,
Heather 🌿
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