Met with the counselor today. She was extremely helpful, we started on Cognitive Behavior Training and it was so helpful. For those who don't know about 10+ years ago I was driving in a severe rain storm and was probably driving a little too fast, when a semi truck passed me in the fast lane and for whatever reason a sheet of water came down and slammed into my car and made me do a 180 on the road, my car stopped literally an inch from oncoming traffic. SCARY. Ever since them I have had extreme anxiety driving in the rain if I see semis. Right after it happened I literally would pull off the side of the road if I saw a semi-truck coming up behind me. I have done a little better recently with it. My counselor made me realize that I have some PTSD regarding that incident. I had an incident last week with Rob, we were driving in the rain, it was pounding down and I got a little anxious about it, and had to take an anxiety pill. Well today my counselor helped me work through it and change my thought processes about it. She said this helps with Anxiety, Depression and more.It goes hand in hand with what I have been reading in the "Feeling Good Handbook" by David Burns. Having my counselor go over it and draw it out for me really helped make it more clear to me.
A=Act or Trigger
B= Beliefs (irrational)
C= Consequence (behavioral and emotional
D= Dispute (reframing thoughts)
For example
A- My trigger was riding in a car during the rain stormB- My irrational beliefs were that because we were driving in a rainstorm, a semi was going to push us off the road
C- My emotional consequence was a panic attack
D- The Reframe: The car is safe, it is very unlikely to happen as I have passed hundreds of semis in the rain and being pushed off the road hasn't happened again.
She told me to use my fears as wisdom. For example one of my biggest fears is, I am afraid that Rob will die of a heart attack (have had many dreams about it), she recommended that I take a CPR class so I am better prepared when and if it does happen. I am a big 'what iffer' and I know it drives Rob crazy, she told me to come up with solutions for my what if's. Such as we can eat healthier, exercise, take meds or supplements to reduce his risks of dying of a heart attack. I can enjoy every day and make memories with him that I will always remember and cherish.
She said that it's important to acknowledge my feelings/emotions then shift the thought process. She gave me a couple of handouts, one is a Daily Mood Log where I can record my feelings and work through them. I take my negative thoughts and realize the distortion I am telling myself them change them to positive thoughts.
I am proud to say that it was raining on my way home from my appointment and I used what I learn and NO stress, no anxiety and I passed multiple semi-trucks. Woot Woot!
This article talks about Cognitive Restructuring (has a mood log in there) as well as the 10 Cognitive Distortions.
http://www.mun.ca/rmhp/professionals/4StepsCognitiveRestructuring.PDF
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